We suddenly find ourselves in a precarious situation in my household. There has been surprising news, an unexpected turn of events, and disappointment. The details are irrelevant. The salient point can be found in the present. We are, in a word, unstable.
As I lamented our instability last week, whining a bit to the Lord, I did what I always do when things seem to go awry: I pulled out my journal and my Bible. "I have nowhere to go but to you," I thought.
"But now, Lord, what do I look for? My hope is in you." Psalm 39:7
As I went to Him, He reminded me that He had led me to this verse several times over the last few weeks. The Word has certainly come alive in me this week; as plans are cut short and the future seems so uncertain, I can cling to this verse, this truth.
During the previous season of unemployment, an eight month period which ended in May, one lesson kept coming up over and over again. "Live in the present." It was as if God was waiting for us to finally get it, to truly live out Matthew 6:25-34. I don't know if that stands up theologically, but I can tell you with certainty that was our experience. He moved us from a place of worry about the future to peace in the present. Our circumstances did not change until our understanding did, our perception, our belief.
And today? After a week where our present has been shaken, yet again? There is still peace (praise God!) because I look for Him, and find Him, in the present. "I have nowhere to go but you" - my current mantra - can be rephrased as:
"There is absolutely nothing I can do about my situation."
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"I am powerless but you are powerful."
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"You are my only hope."
Linking up with Soli Deo Gloria tonight. There's an exciting giveaway at Jen's place - be sure to check it out!