Thursday, March 1, 2012

Upside Down and Inside Out

I like order.  And I don’t think that’s a bad thing.  God created order out of chaos, right?  I like for things to go in their proper place, space, time, order.  So, I structure my life that way.  I shop at the same places every week, I write at the same times on the same days, I even straighten books at my local Barnes & Noble when I’m not on duty.  (I know, it’s a little obsessive…..)

So, I found it strange last week when, suddenly, everything was most definitely out of order.

Normally, on my days off (when the kids are at preschool), I swing by Barnes & Noble for my morning mocha, go upstairs to “my” overstuffed chair, curl up with my laptop for an hour of writing, and then head to the gym for a swim before it’s time to pick the kids up again.

Not this past Thursday.  After I dropped off the kids I randomly felt like going straight to the gym.  When I hopped in the pool (which was, blissfully, empty), I felt the Holy Spirit nudge me to mix things up a bit. 

You see – usually – I warm up with freestyle, work my way into breaststroke, crank out some backstroke, and then warm down with free.  Instead, I warmed up with breast stroke, swam far more back stroke than normal, and finished up strong with several laps of freestyle, including my usual warm down.

The result?  I felt stronger, and went farther, than I ever do.

Conclusion?  Sometimes you have to switch things up to get where you want to be.

My husband and I are moving.  We’re uprooting the whole family and changing cities, schools, jobs, everything.  Along the way I’ve found myself coming across a lot of “should’s”.  When buying a house, one should do this….  When starting a business, one should do that….

The truth?  There are no “should’s” when you follow Jesus, save one: when following the Lord, one should seek Him.

Every time I start to get scared – thinking we’re doing things the wrong way and it will never work out…or, worse yet, thinking “what will so-and-so think of me when I tell him/her what we do know versus what we don’t know?  Will he/she think we’re stupid?”…every time I start to go there, the Lord reminds me of that day in the pool.  He reminds me: He’s the One who created all order, and He knows the correct path for this particular journey.

So, we’re a little upside down and inside out right now, and yet, I know we’re exactly where we are supposed to be.

What about you?  Do you find it hard to follow in faith when the path doesn’t seem to make sense?


  1. Good to hear from you, girl!

    Wow! Those are some serious changes you have ahead of you.

    When the path ahead doesn't make sense to me, I usually try to force it. Redraw the route until it fits what I want...multiple times. Then get upset becasue it's not working, and finally I cave. Most of the time I'm surprised by how well the path I haven't chosen works out better than the path I've drawn. Funny how that happens. Yes?

    Keep us posted.

    1. Amy, I can totally relate to that! Amazing how stubborn/prideful we can be, but thank God we eventually come back to the same place: submission to the One we love so desperately. I always find that He knows best, if I'll just trust Him enough to show me.