A few weeks back I had an interesting moment. I was at home enjoying quiet time when this thought entered my mind:
"The kids will be home (from spending the night with their grandmother) soon. Am I a horrible mom that I send my kids off to Grandma's almost once a week?"
Then, almost immediately, came this thought:
"No. Let's try that again. How about this: 'I am so thankful that my kids have grandparents that want their home to be a safe place. I'm so thankful that I have a mother-in-law who loves to care for me and her son this way. I'm so thankful that Gunnar and Lily are growing a strong, solid relationship with these grandfolks.'"
Whoa. Uh. What just happened?
I experienced a turning. Call it repentance. Call it 'taking my thoughts captive' (2 Cor. 10:5). Call it whatever you want. I call it good.
I immediately felt better. Mentally. Emotionally. Physically (I could feel the tension leave my muscles as I engaged the second line of thinking).
"This is awesome," I thought to myself. "I want it to always be like this."
In other words, I want to choose the gracious path - the path that spreads life, love, wholeness, peace, joy. I want to see the good in things rather than the negative. I want to be thankful for what I have rather than lament what I'm missing. And no matter what I say or anyone else says, the older I get, the more I know: this is a choice. How I see my life directly affects how I am able to enjoy my life. I, for one, want to see it with His eyes - thankful for what the Father has given me.
In the weeks since I've been trying to practice this turning, specifically in my thought life. Are there areas of your life that you need to see differently? Would a shift in perspective bring you into a greater sense of His presence, alive and active in your life? I'd love to hear about it!
Linking up with Jen at Soli Deo Gloria again this week. Be sure to check out some of the other posters and join the community if you feel inclined. It's a wonderful source of mutual, Christ-centered encouragement!